White Noise In The Mind

I guess when people go to clubs and have had their ears bashed in by damaging volumes, then subsequently hear a white noise that they cannot get rid of, is a bit like how my mind has become. These people are unable to go to sleep unless they have some other sound, like the sound of a fan, to drown out the white noise from the damaged vibration sensitive hairs that line the inside of ears. These hairs are tiny and when healthy is what is used deep in the ears to 'read' sound waves, which are vibrations. Where it is like my mind in how it is functioning at the moment is like how I had turned up the volume in my mind too much and like the ears I cannot hear quietness, or pick up on small sounds which you have to be quiet sensitive to hear. The little hairs lining my brain are in recovery. And if this were happening to my ears, to heal them I would let them sit in quietness, training the tiny hairs to take all of it in, listening to the soundlessness and admiring its quality. But this is my brain and though it is different, it may still be the same scenario. I could sit my brain in complete quietness, a skill that takes effort to achieve. Mind like water, just sitting like a puddle on the floor and just admiring the quality of the moment. Training the tiny little hairs to take all of it in.

I think that is why I like to dance. And when I cannot dance, sing. Because doing so drowned out the white noise, just like the sound of a fan.